to my hood he comes

i am amazed at how things somehow work out, especially when u started off tryin to not keep ur hopes up, fearing disappointment.

what's even better is when ur havin a shit week, with a spoilt computer & unnecessary expenditure, and somethin else cheers u up. i guess every cloud really does have a silver lining doesnt it?

im excited. extremely.

oh, do listen to don't matter by akon. its a f**kinly awesome song. really, it is.

and i like running by the beach. its fun. we really shud do it more often nesh. i have 2 months to get in shape and look good (or at least attempt to look good)

the world is my oyster

its already tuesday of the easter break. which means i only have 5 days left . :(
sort of torn between slackin off, and job searchin. hmmmm. i really shud be puttin more effort into my job searchin for all the travellin i want to do. *sigh* somebody motivate me!

i've been goin through frens facebook pictures and i must admit, i am immensely jealous of all the travellin ppl are doin. wan jean n ely went to amsterdam, ashvin jus got back from barcelona, suthesh has done pretty much every f**kin place in europe i've always dreamt of visiting (london, paris, vienna, prague, switzerland).

truth is, i've always dreamt of travellin. jus never had the moolah to do it as much as i want to. not tht i havent travelled much, i mean, sri lanka, new zealand, australia and america is not bad. oh and there's singapore but thts so close to home it doesn count. so far, my america trip was the most awesome (and not to mention extensive) 6 weeks of both the west coast( san franscisco, LA, vegas, arizona) and the east coast (philly and NYC, the highlight and most eventful but of my trip ;) was more than i could ask for. Thank you, papa for the best birthday gift ever. love u!

anyways, time is runnin out. i mean i want to do travellin before i graduate and my life becomes abt workin 140 hours in 2 weeks and only havin like wat 2-3 weeks off in a year as a intern. sometimes i wish i could take a yr off to do nothin but travel. i was at the melbourne university website and they were advertising for this volunteer programs in places like brazil and india n stuff which sound oh so appealin..

ok, enough of whinin. movin on...we're havin a dessert pot luck this sat! which will be excitin coz i love dessert! im goin to make pancakes and a carrot cake, sandra's makin her famous muffins, carol and her cookies...its gonna be awesome! jus need to starve myself for the next few days and it'l be fine. and need to do some extra running. EXTRA EXTRA runnin.

talkin abt runnin, sandra and i are thinkin abt doin the run for the g thingy. we're aimin for a 10 km run, but dinesh keeps pushin for a half marathon. sorry nesh, but after only 2 months of runnin i really dont thk im ready for a half marathon yet. step by step lah..

oh, and i didnt run yesterday, and i ate an easter bunny yesterday. so u can imagine how guilty i feel. hmmmm.

ok, im off to do some laundry now.
over n out.

i am a nomad.

easter break has started, yet things are not as excitin as i hoped it wud be.

firstly, ive been kinda mood off the last few days...withdrawal symptoms, perhaps? skipped to parties, but managed to drag myself to santi's 21st..which was really good..nice finger food, and an AWESOME cake...some choc cake from david jones...OMG it was heaven!!

i've been cravin 2 things in the last few days: 1)cinnamon toast crunch (damn u mike iskor for introducin it to me) and 2) reese's peanut butter cup. both of which i cant get in australia.. *sigh* i guess il jus have to wait till dec when i go (or if, dependin very much on my financial situation) to the US...arrgh i hate not havin money..

anyways, back to me whinin. sometimes i wonder, is studyin overseas always a good thing? for one, its given me the independence i have always craved, but on the other hand, i feel lik i've lost touch with things at home.like family for instance. its so hard to keep a tab on things, and things sometimes get misinterpreted along the way. i've come to a conclusion: no more will i attempt to try and butt in to things tht are goin on at home. mayb im jus makin things worse, in any case, i thk tht not being there, i no longer have the right to do so. my life is no longer back home. my life is here, right now. lol. i jus realised how little sense this is goin to make to ppl who read this..
anyways, as i was sayin, my life is not in malaysia, nor will it ever truly be. without soundin like a total complete n utter bitch, im goin to admit this: i dont miss home. ppl are always talkin abt missin their late night pratas and havin their mommies do their laundry. but the fact is, ive been like a freakin nomad for such a long time tht treading unfamiliar territories has become a weirdly familiar thing for me. and the incident tonight just sealed my belief. no more is my life there. i guess this the sacrifice one has to make in this scenario.

*sigh*

*double sigh*

somehow, somethin tells me tht i have made things worse. and unfortunately other ppl are the ones who are goin to feel the wrath, not me. which is makin this guilt even harder to handle.

from now onwards,communication will be minimal, and limited to wat i have done for the day.might jus be easier tht way.

malaysia no longer holds my heart.

wait.... what heart??

alright, on to more lively things... today i ran longer than usual. 3 rounds around uni (deepa will be so proud of me) and the i ran along dandenong road, turned into clayton road, and back to kanooka grove. ran for more than an hour. strangely enough, after all tht, i didnt feel tired. i didnt even feel SOB. HR was not up. which makes me feel like i didnt work hard enough. like the last 2 days after like 5 mins itself i was feelin so out of breath n tired tht i ended up walkin. hmmm. my body is very neurotic, much like me.

ok. im off to bed now. sorry for the miscommunication and pissin u off. from now on, u do wat u do, and i will do wat i do. plz dont expect miracles from me, im very much incapable of such things.